Day 1
I feel like God has been trying to reach out to me this past week by slapping me in the face with all of these sermons on everything that I have gone through these last couple of days. It has literally been the same things over and over again....positive attitude in Christ, submission, and the desire of Christ. My closest friends giving me the look like "wow this sermon is for you" has really been getting through to me, in a good way of course!
I cried today with a close friend realizing that even though I don't understand why this is happening in this relationship, why my family is choosing this decision, or why I can't have my own way, God is in complete control. Sometimes that does not always sound so comforting, more like a "easier said than done" sort of feeling. I love the friends I have gained because they truely care about me, and when I didn't cry they started freaking out! lol
I always pictured a relationship with a boy to be the most wonderful easy thing that could ever happen to me. Ha, God sure showed me...nothing but drama and crying lol...I hate crying. But, not to worry God is on my side!!! I know I know it sounds funny, but I've honestly come to the conclusion that I truely need to find comfort in Him even though it doesn't make sense right now. All of the trials I have been through have made me the person I am today, so why not go through another one if it only makes me that much stronger? In the end, like wayyy end, I have never regretted going through anything that has made my life a living hell. Sure at the moment I wish I wasn't going through it, and even a little after I wish I didn't do that...but over all I have always learned something that I am glad I learned. I guess all I can do is go through the trials God has placed in front of me, because He would never give me something that I couldn't handle, which means it is doable!
Overall Lesson:
#1. Cry when you feel sad, not good to bottle things up (which I am very good at doing).
#2. Go to your friends you trust most and open up to them, because if they truely care they'll stick around and comfort you in ways that others can't.
#3. Rest in God alone because even though things may be sucky, this is His plan for you.
#4. Live your life in a way that will bring glory to Christ.
1 Corinthians 10:13 "God is faithful, and he will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptaion he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it."
